31th of May -no decision to be made yet-

well.. as you guys know, today is the last day of May 2009..

eum.. and FYI
and i still haven't chosen which university / campus i should join yet.

my parents' decision(s) make me frustrate for sure,
i can't go elsewhere except Medan, which is my hometown.

even i can't go to USU.

i know they afraid i can't take care of myself if i live far from them,
i know they worry about me.
i know that i am the only daughter of them.
but, isn't it a bit too hyper? i am 18 year-old already, and soon i will be 20! i am no more a kid!

i just want to go to Jakarta and they still DON'T allow me to go there to study, to reach my dream!!
even we have many family live in there to take care of me!

tell me guys, does universities in Medan have arts & design faculty?
i want to be a graphic designer! i feel like my future is being taken away.

i... have lost my future, haven't I?

i envy you who are allowed to choose your own future..
i really do....

Nihongo Lesson, YATTA!

yeah!! finally, i am going to learn Nihongo aka Japanese Language soon!!
hahaha...
this afternoon i called the number again *Thursday was the first time i called, asking about the place, schedule and of course the tuition fee* to confirm that me and one of my friend will start the lesson in June.

the first of June will be a perfect day to be used as a starter, ain't it?
beside i've had my freedom for almost 1 month and to be honest it's kinda boring to have nothing to do all the time except wake up in the morning-nearly 12, is it morning or afternoon?-, breakfast-which i eat @ 11.30-, online, dinner, watching tv, films, bathing and so on that no-more-students and unemployees do. -_____-"

i asked other friends to join this lesson but it seems they are busied by the exams, both universities or school.
they're good to have things to do, unlike me. *sigh*

for now, i'm waiting for first of June to come, and... because i'm starting to learn nihongo, that means i have accomplished one from three of my-to-do-something plans.

and once more, YATTA!!!
2 more to go, eh? XD

Adding and Changing Some Stuffs

i've been no-where-these-2-days-after-watching-Night At The Museum 2-with-friends-except-home but i didn't write anything on my blog because i was too lazy, because i was stress out, because i had no idea about the topic, because i was considering and thinking about my future, because i was too busy, because i was bla bla blaa blaa and blaaaa..
*well, too many reasons* :P

now, i've added some new-to my blog only- stuffs after visited some informative blogs about how to make better our blog, i made some lovely changes. ;)
they are :

• changing the favicon of my blogger,
• adding traffic feed and,
  
• linking friends

you just need a simple way and lil time to do it.



first,
change the favicon

favicon is
you can change your blog with other picture / animation you want.
to change it, you need to upload picture / animation into a favicon site, i use this site .
then copy the html code given, and open your dashboard > layout > edit html.

find this code by ctrl+F :

</b:skin>

and paste the given html code below that code.

tara... your favicon has changed!

credits to : this site

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then the second part,
add a traffic feed on your blog

traffic feed is used to know your visitors, from where they come from, how can they arrive at your blog and etc.

just click here to get it. :D

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the third part,
put links onto your lovely blog

just go to layout > Page Elements > add a gadget > link list
just configure the things inside it and finish!


cheers,

a Sunday

i knew that i couldn't be online yesterday because the day before i I'd done it all the day.
but the reason why i couldn't online has changed. XD
it's because i had a trip. :D

i... went to Brastagi *again*
and to be honest, we spent almost all the trip by sitting in the car.
*well, went to the market, then Lau Debu-Debu (hot spring) and then went back to GreenHill*

you'll know how long it takes to Brastagi if you have ever gone there. -__-"

we spent hours in GreenHill, (we stayed in the Wagapapa restaurant) so i continued reading Botchan by Natsume Soseki til the end while waiting to go home.

at last, we went home @ 8.30 and got into Medan @ 10.00

and i watched 1 episode of Prison Break season 3 *yay! finally season 3* before i went to sleep.
hihihihihi.....

Dream : The Classroom

i have many dreams this week.

the first one, *i forget when i had this dream*

my dream was about my school,
i was still in the 24 classroom, and there were friends around me, we had our chit-chat. * i forget who they were*
then, i had to leave *because my stomach hurt so much that i had to wake up* and i thought that i could come to this class and meet them another day, the days we come to school, like the usual 200++ days a year.

after i woke up, i knew that it was just a dream. but.. it's sooo real for me.

hahahhaa.. baka me, though i don't really miss my friends but i still dream about them.
is it from the deepest of my heart that i really miss them, my friends for 3 years in Senior High?
i thought for a while after i woke up, and my answer is that i had my dream because i miss the classroom, my place in the class, the view from my place, not my friends.
*sorry friends, to be cruel*


it's just hard to leave the class that i've used to study for 3 years.
before this Senior High, the class since i was primary had always been changed year by year.
so, 3 years are not a short time to be in the room no. 24.

you know, the feeling when you go to the 3rd floor and walk to the second room of your left hand. *that you would feel sooo tired because you have to take the stairs and go to the 3rd floor while you're taking 5kg of books on your back.. >,<*

i won't ever forget the tired i have for 3 years every morning.
hahaha...

Just One Chance

I'm watching Prison Break season 2 and i realize that people are just given one chance to do something right.

the question is,

is it true?

i don't know why,
but i think it's true and once you mess it up, then adios.

like i wrote before, i'm watching Prison Break season 2, and in this season, the story talks about the breaking out of the cons (8 of them if i'm not mistaken, CMIIW).

some of the escapees are innocent, or they have done just a 'little' wrong in their life *and get 15 years or more inside the jail? wow, i am truly amazed by USA's law*
the reason why they wanna break away are their family, their wife, their children.

they just wanna have their life back. they want a second chance.
but the conditions are not supporting them, they become the-most-wanted-people in the USA.

wherever they go, and if people know they are cons, the face of the people they meet will be changed for sure. *and some will call the police soon*

and the same thing happens for us too, right? *just consider you do something wrong, not a con*
your friends won't think the same about you like they used to.

i hate to admit it, but people and its society are cruel.
*and sometimes i am one of them* :(

Stomachache Problem

i feel like... * don't know how to say it*
because of... *don't know what's wrong with my stomach*

you may laugh at me now. -___-"
but i really don't know what happens with my stomach.

it's not like the usual stomach ache.
the ache comes and goes, can be every minute, every hour, even hours.

the position of the pain is not exactly in the stomach, but it's above of it. (likely in the way before the stomach)
i think it's because of sour stomach (acid indigestion) because i didn't eat properly, but i don't know the exact.
i've taken lots of medicine, from Chinese to Indonesian ones but i think they all don't make any changes on my stupid-unknown-stomachache.

the first time i felt the pains was 2 days ago.
it's in the morning and i just suddenly woke up when the pains came and i went to downstairs, told my mom.

the first day of the pains, i felt like in HELL. the pains came several times / hour.
the second day, the pain's gone a little, the frequency of the pains to occur didn't as much as the first day.
and then now,
the third day, i think it worse than the first day. (after i ate a jelly mango and ice drink, i think i should have regret it beside it costs 2k for the jelly mango + worse my pain) *sh!t*

i took my time to sleep just now and i found up my stomach in pains several times during my sleep, but i tried to ignore it and continued my sleep.

hope i can get well soon.

The Piano Concert

i went to a Piano Concert of my friends *one of my primary school friends actually*
all i can say is he has become a great pianist.

:)

and from what i've heard, he gets a full scholarship at NUS, music department.
*wow, amazing, isn't it?*

well, i don't know if he still remembers me or not *since we are only a primary school friends*
but i wish him good luck in achieving his bright future.

to be honest, i'm not one of the classical music fans..
so i almost fall asleep during the concert. -____-"
*my bad* hehehehe..

but i like one of the musics that he played, it's Srikandhy by Yazeed Djamin *he's one of the greatest Indonesian composer & pianist*
it was a great music, the classical music which has the Melayu's element.

and i like the Chuay Ay *if i'm not mistaken* which was presented by the Methodist 2 's chamber choir.
A great song from Phillipines.

well, just that i can say for now.

cheers,

Love or Friendship?

if someone ask you,

which one will you choose between love and friendship?

it's just a simple question, but the answer is hard for almost all the people.

some will choose love,
some will choose friendship,
some will choose neither.

but, i believe people who choose 'friendship' and 'neither' are not more than 5%.

most of them will choose love,
i've seen so many friends choose this one so don't ask me why i'm so sure about this.
*if you say it's wrong, then just skip this stupid article of mine*

i hate to say this and i know that i should not care about this because i'm not one of them,
not one of your close friends,
not the one who has the right to choose.

i'm just an outsider.

but, love is not everything. and so are friends,

one thing i'm sure of.
friend is a thing because you can't live without them.
though, most of them (the one chooses 'love') would say 'i can live on this earth by just having love' *and i would say again, just skip this article if you don't like to read it*

my heart hurts, a lot, it's just likely... a wound has opened again.
i... wanna cry, but i can't,
i... wanna mad at someone, but i can't,

i can't really understand and i still can't believe it, that one of my friends leaves her friends just to chase her 'love'.

is it 'love is everything' for them?
PS : 'them' refers to people who choose love.

i'm not mad at the them because they choose 'love' than 'friendship' but i'm mad at them because they forget how their friends are around them, sharing the time when they're sad, happy, mad, angry together.
how their friends support them for everything.
and they just.. leave after all the things friends gave to them, just because friends telling you to choose one of them. (in some cases, friends don't tell them to choose, but they choose)

i will be happy

if seeing them struggling in order to endure for love and friendship.
*it's true, from the deepest of my heart*

if they keep making their friends believe if everything is just ok,
and they'll be friends forever.

least but not the last,
i bet ALL of you have ever heard the word

Ex-Boyfriend or Ex-Girlfriend

but,

have you ever heard the word

Ex-Friend or Ex-Best Friend ?

think about it.

cheers,

NB : feel free to leave any comments.

The Prom Night....

today is very tiring because we, the Senior High has a prom night in one of the restaurant in my hometown.

i had to wake up @ 6.45 and went to Miau's home, we went to the GR aka General Rehearsal together. *GR on the H-day? WTH????*
everything was kinda mess up because of this.

i went back home @ around mid day and had a rest, then @ around 2.30 i went to the saloon *hehehe*

the prom night *should be* went well because he had put all the energy we had on the GR in the morning,
but because of the BAKA fat ass headmaster who like to show-off his works in front of the directors of the school, the opening of the prom night crushed!!!

the crushes was began when the fat ass headmaster started the prom night by saying that the party MUST be started @ 6 pm *well, it should be actually*.

but, it's not the usual of the fatass to make it on time. usually, the party starts when almost all the participants are present.
i know that the only *and will be the only one* reason that the fatass doing this stupid act is because he wanted to show-off in front of the directors.

go to hell you, baka-fat-ass-headmaster who like to show-off!!!

it's kinda sad you know, it's the farewell party of us, the Senior High of 08/09

we should really have had our fun.

because we had struggling on this.

because it would be *probably* the last time we meet each other.

oh ya, btw, it's raining soooooooo huge, and there's a saying in my country,

when it's raining on the day of your birth, wedding, or so on, that means u're so STINGY.

my school is famous at its stingy, *perhaps only us, the students and the teachers of the school know it* ya know, and it's kinda funny to see it happens on the day of our prom night.

:)

cheers,

The Black Magician (Novel Series) : Part 1

I have just finished reading the Book One of The Black Magician yesterday night which is written by Trudi Canavan.
my friend lent it to me.

The Black Magician novel has 3 series, they are :
1. The Magicians' Guild
2. The Novice
3. The High Lord

and i have just finished the first one.

Book One : The Magicians' Guild (2001)

It's about an ordinary girl named as Sonea who lives in the city's slums and hates Magicians. On one day, she discovers that she has the potential to become a magician. The Magicians' Guild starts to search for her in order to teach her the way to control her power and wants her to be with the Guild. But it's not an easy way to find and take her to the Guild since she doesn't believe and hates the Magicians. That's the beginning of her long story.

for more information : Click Here

i thought reading a fantasy novel would make me confuse and so, and i have never think that i can like reading this kind of book.
*well, since i never have the time to read a fantasy novel coq i think i need big imaginations to read it* XD

it really is a nice book and has a nice plot.
the way Trudi Canavan wrote it really make us feel like we're in the world of the magicians.

Try to read it!

MoonLight Resonance

At around 2 pm on Monday the internet connection of mine could not work suddenly, i thought it was because of viruses,
so i decided to continue watching Moonlight Resonance that i borrowed from a friend while waiting for the virus scanning. *anyway, i know internet connection problem was not because of any viruses after my bro went back home, he said that was because of so many thunder occurred in my hometown, and one of them strikes the transmitter tower of my internet provider* -___-"

Moonlight Resonance (2008)

for more information : click here

this time, i watched ep. 16 until ep. 20,
and i CRIED a lot when i watched ep. 18!
OMG!!!! it was so touching especially in the part when the eldest son, A Jia / A Ka mad at A Hung (his step mother) and tells all the things that he heard when he was young in front of the family.

i wanna continue watching the ep. 21 til the end (total 40 eps.) but i can't because my friend has only until ep. 20. *ugh*
i am planning to search, download and watch it now.

this drama is the second drama that makes me cry a lots after One Litre of Tears / Ichi Ritoru no Namida ( 1 リットルの涙).

for you who like to watch HK's drama, this one is a MUST!

Happy Belated Waisak Day!! :)

Argh, i'm so tired today coq i went to GreenHill with my mom and dad to celebrate Waisak Day and just came back this afternoon.

though i had my sleep couple hours ago but the tire doesn't seem to go away.
i think i need more sleep tonight.

btw, i celebrated this year's Waisak by going to a Vihara in GreenHill. *the first time for my life spending Waisak Day like this, XD*
2 days and 1 night's trip started @ around 2 pm on Saturday.
and arrived @ around 4.30 pm *coq of the traffic jam*.

i were supposed to see the Chow-Chow's dog that i dreamed for such a long time~ --it lives in the Vihara--, but when i went inside the Vihara an auntie gave me the paritta book*that i couldn't reject* so, started to pray lead by the Bhikkhu(s) for around 1 hour.
after the ritual ended, i searched for the dog, but couldn't find it. :(

at around 9 pm we were doing the-surrounding-the-Vihara-while-taking-candles-ritual.
and i couldn't take my sandals, so i walked with my bared feet *you know, the floor was wet coq of the rain and small rocks were everywhere*
i felt like walking on the road full of knives. -____-"

after that, i found the Chow-Chow *finally* in the kitchen of the Vihara after the looooonnnggg ritual. XD
and it was having its sleep. *soooo cutteeeeeeeeeeeeeee that i wanna hug it, ya know*

i had my sleep in one of the villa nears the Vihara,
i woke up @ 8 am, had my breakfast and then did the-walk-3x-kneel-1x-ritual ---i think i did it more than 50x.
*the most tiring ritual i've ever had*

look at the queue before the ritual started. *OMG*
and i were standing in the middle, i had lots of people queuing behind me..

after that i escaped *coq the ritual had not ended yet, i were supposed to read some parittas* to see the fat Chow-Chow, my mom told me that they call him "A Pui" which means "Fatty" in English.
hahahah.., cute name, isn't it?

here are the pictures of A Pui :

kawaii desu ne~

now, my knees hurt... T_____T
and i feel the pains on my back *like having 1000tons of rock on my back*

but in the end, i feel like this is the most-happiest-waisak-day that i and my family have ever spent. :)

EARTHQUAKE!! :(

EARTHQUAKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...

oh my goodness!!!!!

an earthquake just occurred minutes ago.

my bro told me that we had an earthquake, but i didn't believe him so i went to see the hanging lamp in my living room, and we really had!!!

oh gosh!
i was shocked by my-stupid-bro's-voice.

hope i have a nice sleep tonight *no-dream-about-earthquake-things*

Spending the boring day~

It's raining heavily tonight but the weather is still so hot. *ough*
what has happen with this lovely earth?
is it because of global warming? i think it is.

well... i was supposed to go to school *again* today to play around, have chit-chat with them-- the ones who are learning the dance for prom night etc. *ganbatte!!*
but i wasn't. hehehehe.. coq this morning i felt a lil dizzy (i don't know why, but i think i was too tired because of yesterday's activity.)
so, i canceled it.


and i made my day by Facebook-ing and watching HK's films that i borrowed from my friend all the day. XD
but i fell asleep @ around 4 p.m. :)
*like i said, too tired, so need to sleep a lot..*

and i woke up @ around 7 p.m.
then i had my bath @ 7.15.

and now, i'm writing about my whole-useless-activity-which-i-spent-at-home-all-the-day, oh yeah, in the middle of the drizzle rain, of course.

OMG! it's 8.17 now..
well... i wanna watch Armageddon on TV!

see ya later. :)

good nite all!

I'm Vichan

hi there,
this is my first time to start a blog personally on blogger.com.

well, i have been thinking to make a blog since i was in Senior High, but because of the activities+ laziness, it's pended until now. :)

today is the 2nd day of my long freedom, which means the school things are OVER! *and the university things are WAITING for me*
Yeah!

and i'm just waiting for the result of my National Exam @ home (and i hope that i can pass it *well*) for now.


btw,

i'm planning to have more things on my long freedom, they are :

• learning Japanese Language;
• learning graphic design things;
• advance my drawing skill.

Hope i can work on all of my plans!